Mine and my mom's saying.

so true.

I really appreciate this.

Day Ten

What is your biggest fear when it comes to relationships?

My biggest fear is letting someone be my everything, and then losing them.  I'm horrible at letting people in, because I hate the thought of losing someone.  My friends all say that I need to be more open to relationships, and things along those lines, but to be honest, I don't know if I'm emotionally capable of letting someone know that much about me.  I'm bad when it comes to getting attached to someone.  I like to be in control of everything, so the idea of letting someone else have some of the control isn't appealing to me. 

I guess my biggest fear is getting hurt.  I'm bad at it. I get too emotional.  And that's why I don't have feelings anymore.  I learned a long time ago not to have any expectations for any boy in my life, because then I can't get let down. 

That pretty much sums it up.

I just found this. It sums my life up.

Day Nine:

Are you a lover or a fighter?
This is really hard for me to answer. Because I'm both. But I feel like that's a cop out.

On one hand, I defintley stick up for my own opinions, views, and most importantly, self.  I'm not afraid to confront a problem head on.  I don't dread confrontation like everyone else.

But, I hate starting problems.  I would rather let things go then make someone else uncomfortable.  I would never want to make someone else upset, or angry.  Unless you really piss me off or do something really really wrong, I'm not going to do anything about it.  It's more of a "someone else's problem" type of thing to me.

Plus, I'm an "I love you" whore. I throw "I love you"s around with free abandon. I am an "I love you" hooker if you will, I get angry when my sister doesn't say it before she hangs up the phone.  I can't hang up the phone with any friend or family member without saying it. I just think it's really important to get it all out there, just in case something horrible was to happenI say it to everyoneeee.

So yeah.  I'm both a lover and a fighter, and in inbetweener. Shocking.

Day Eight

What do you like most about yourself?

Well. I like my eyelashes. and my legs. but those are superfical. and stupid.

I guess I really like that everyone comes to me with their problems.  I'm happy that I'm trustworthy, and a good listner.  I like being the "secret keeper".  I like that people view me as someone that they can ask for advice from, and trust that I'm looking out for their best interests.  It makes me feel good that I can help others.  I'm a fixer, and I like to fix people's problems, and I really like that I'm good at it.

I like that I'm calm. and collected. like, in really stressfull situations, I don't get riled up and stressed out.  I'm very go with the flow, and pretty easy to get along with. I like that I can take a joke, and that I'm not easily offended.  Really, it takes a lot to actually piss me off. I think it's a good quality to have. 

Day Seven

What is something you're addicted to?
I'm addicted to a lot of things. Its not good, but its part of who I am.  I kindof have an addictive personality I guess. So here we go:

+ Diet Coke/Coffee-I need my caffeine more than anything.  These two help me get through the day, and I get really bad headaches if I don't have caffeine for more than a few hours. Its bad, but whatever.
+ Taylor Swift's music- I think I've made my love pretty damn clear. I love her. Her music always is on a playlist of mine. Enough siad.
+ Oreos and Peanutbutter- My go to snack. It's always awesome. It's the best combination everrr.
+ The Script- They speak to my soul.  And are amazing. And I love them.
+ textsfromlastnight.com- Makes me pee my pants on a daily basis. I leave them for alot of my college friends too. I think their really funny when they're oddly related to our lives too. It's nice to know that other drunk people do the same shit we do.

That's all I can think of right now. But those are all addicting things. I reccomend them.

Day 5 and Day 6

My internet has been out since 8 PM yesterday. It sucked. so you get day five and day six together.

Day 5: What is your phobia/fear?

My biggest fear is falling.  I'm scared of heights, first of all.  I'm terriffed that I'll lose it and get hurt.  I can't stand walking next to the glass wall on the second floor of the mall.  I don't climb ladders.  I'm proud that I can sleep in my loft. 

On the other hand, Taylor always tells me that I'm afraid of falling for anything or anyone, because I like to be in control, and don't like the idea of something uncertain.  I guess that makes a lot of sense too.  I'm someone who likes to know exactaly what's going on, and be able to decide how its all supposed to go.

I guess I don't like trusting someone else to be there to catch me.  It's against my instincts.

Day 6: Have you ever been heartbroken? Have you ever broke a heart?

I've been heartbroken.  That's an easy one. Boy's always let me down.  I just had an all night heart to heart with my friend Alyx about this last night.  I've been cheated on, and manipulated too many times for me to have faith in love anymore, and its really sad, but really true.  So yes, I've defintley been heart broken.  Sometimes I don't feel like my heart ever has enough time to heal and be okay again.

On the other hand, I don't think I've ever really broken someone's heart  I usually work really hard to make whoever I'm with happy, and I give out too many second chances to break someone down.  I really do respect anyone who respects me, and I treat people right.  Someone once told me I was breaking their heart, but the fact that he rebounded so quickly tells me otherwise.