Day 5 and Day 6

My internet has been out since 8 PM yesterday. It sucked. so you get day five and day six together.

Day 5: What is your phobia/fear?

My biggest fear is falling.  I'm scared of heights, first of all.  I'm terriffed that I'll lose it and get hurt.  I can't stand walking next to the glass wall on the second floor of the mall.  I don't climb ladders.  I'm proud that I can sleep in my loft. 

On the other hand, Taylor always tells me that I'm afraid of falling for anything or anyone, because I like to be in control, and don't like the idea of something uncertain.  I guess that makes a lot of sense too.  I'm someone who likes to know exactaly what's going on, and be able to decide how its all supposed to go.

I guess I don't like trusting someone else to be there to catch me.  It's against my instincts.

Day 6: Have you ever been heartbroken? Have you ever broke a heart?

I've been heartbroken.  That's an easy one. Boy's always let me down.  I just had an all night heart to heart with my friend Alyx about this last night.  I've been cheated on, and manipulated too many times for me to have faith in love anymore, and its really sad, but really true.  So yes, I've defintley been heart broken.  Sometimes I don't feel like my heart ever has enough time to heal and be okay again.

On the other hand, I don't think I've ever really broken someone's heart  I usually work really hard to make whoever I'm with happy, and I give out too many second chances to break someone down.  I really do respect anyone who respects me, and I treat people right.  Someone once told me I was breaking their heart, but the fact that he rebounded so quickly tells me otherwise.